During the time I was setting up this blog, I was initially thinking of using Salvation Project for the title (which, as it turns out, is also a blog title of some religious army convert). My husband, Jigs, asked me, “Bakit salvationproject? Ano’ng sinesave mo?”
“Myself,” I said. Which roused suspicion that I was hinting of a marital problem. I had to prevent myself from laughing.
Let me elaborate.
Personally, I see only four reasons why people would want to be/ are blogging. 1) They want to talk without being interrupted, OR but nobody listens 2) They want to whine and complain, take their revenge on life’s little fuck-ups by spreading the word 3) They want to promote a cause and earn profit or recognition 4) They simply want to peel themselves, save a little humanity through a mirror of their lives and hope that people would learn too, seeing their reflection on that mirror.
Now, I know a lot of people who go for the second. I am guilty of it a number of times. Not that it’s a bad thing, but I also find it short of maturity to do so. Soon people will get tired of the same habit, and you for the meantime, grow more in spite and less in novelty. There’s a difference between writing that merely bites and that which bites and leaves an indelible mark.
So I’m leaving you with this: I write publicly hoping to save myself from the poisons – from being too callous, too used to things, too indifferent – praying that anyone who right-clicks their way into this may understand himself better, so both you and I would harbor a universe where pain, love, sadness, anger, madness, light and awe all exist at the same time and we all could look at it like a child does the first time. That’s why God made writers in the first place. Not so they have a personal tunnel to pleasure, but to share a personal obligation to the world. Because most of the time, it simply forgets.
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