In between House re-runs, tending to the husband and the 5-month old, housekeeping, a few office documents now and then, and a blogging hiatus, there are things missed. And in between those things, things are realized. Like dreams.
I am at a point where I am adult enough to realize that after the engagement, the opposites attract adage is no longer cute nor heroic. Adult enough to see that something’s got to give; it is nearly an illusion to be a supermom.
But there is that realization, too, that even when their spirits seem to be deadened by responsibilities and other hard-hitting facts of life, dreams are not meant to be as is. They were formed along the way because they were supposed to be pursued one day. Because at one point in our lives, we were all kids who marveled and believed that we can fully experience the intricacies of mysteries and hopes, if we haven’t yet. Even adults must ditch the jadedness once in a while.
This year, I plan to save. For future endeavors, for that idyllic beachfront house, a few travels along the way. Maybe even travel solo, no matter how impossible it might seem. The man of the house will surely oppose that last bit, but I won’t mind a few debates. Not anymore (A recent scenario made me realize that, too, but that’s another story). A woman is a woman is woman. She’s complex and multi-faceted. She can not simply be confined in a clause or a niche.
That free Caramoan trip for 2013 (Yep, I won one. Isn’t that an unerring sign?) is a good headstart.
go for it! motherhood tends to trump many things, and at some point we will have to "temporarily" sever whatever it is that joins us and our kids at the hip.
Thanks for the support, Connie!Yes, I bet it would really be tough to leave the kid the first time and it's gonna make me so paranoid, but a woman's gotta live a life outside of motherhood, too, yes?
Definitely. It takes a while before you get that sort of "freedom" but it will come.
I believe it can be achieved sort of "incrementally". Hehe.